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good lord [Jul 16 08 > 1:06am] Quick updates; + My computer works again! + I found a sweet fucking apartment in Savannah! + I love my room mate! + I'm pumped to go back! + Recording more music! - Still don't know what I'm doing! - Working. Always. 0 rain drops falling on my head

28 days [Jun 07 08 > 1:19am] I can't sleep! I haven't been going to bed earlier than two lately and now I can't let myself fall asleep when I need to. I have to drive my parents to the airport in a couple of hours and then drive out to Mount Airy, run back to Winston, go to work, followed by a busy night! I have so many decisions to make that I've been avoiding dealing with. Seeing all of my friends in Savannah again really cleared my head about a lot of things. Everything I've put myself through since the first of May has really put me in a completely different perspective. I have some really tough decisions to make . . . The future is so open and unknown for me right now. And I know I shouldn't, but I'm kind of enjoying not having a plan. I've had my whole life planned out for a couple of years now and it all completely fell to shit in about a month's time. And very strangely I'm getting pleasure from crashing and burning and picking myself back up on my own. There are so many options right in front of me and I could take any one of them that I wanted to and be happy. And even though it seems I'm ready to throw myself in a completely new direction at any given moment, it's not to say that I'm done with everything I intended to do. I guess that's the frustrating part is that even though I could, a part of me is still on hold because I'm just not sure. I guess the next week is really going to govern the next good bit of my life. I'm pumped to find out what happens to me. 2 rain drops falling on my head

yeeah [May 13 08 > 10:18pm] So I don't know if what I'm doing right now is necessarily best, but I don't think it's hurting anything and it's only a week or so more I have to deal with it before (I'm hoping) some actual changes occur. Or at least, start to occur. I'm trying to keep a good head about myself, keep my realizations and understanding in check and I'm pretty much just going where the current situation takes me. I'm hoping for the best. I've got to. I'll worry about other things when worrying about other things will actually matter. For right now, it doesn't and I need to just make myself happy and focus on fixing me. So that's what's up. I hope I can stay strong like this. I'm pretty sure I can. It seems to be working out really well for now. Now I just need to make sure my parents don't hate me. 1 rain drops falling on my head

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